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[Mar. 7th, 2007|07:18 pm] |
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I wonder where everyone went.... where's Jon...? Jen...? Tay..? Yon.? |
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| Vida |
[Feb. 18th, 2007|12:50 am] |
Okay, so an update on what has been going on lately in mi vida. Spanish has been picking up lately with new grammar exercises and more stories that we have to read. It really seems that the better I get in Spanish grammer or speaking, the worse I get in English. Snr. V is having the AP class take the National Spanish Test to see if we can get any awards, I'm going to have to crack down and start studying my vocabulary and grammer. There are a lot of Spanish phrases (equivalent to English phrases like "its raining cats and dogs") that I just don't know. And I need to know them because even if I can translate them, I still won't know what they mean.
In other news I checked out UNCC and they said that they wanted a final answer to if I was going there sometime in April, so I'm still waiting to do that, but I think SCAD wants an answer now. Or at least they want me to fill out a bunch of financial aid paperwork now.
Earlier today I worked for Habitat for Hummanity, I dug holes and leveled out ground, it was fun. And then afterwards ROTC ate pizza. Um, I'm really questioning if maybe I would want to do ROTC in college. Not by scholarship or anything so that I'm not made to go into the military, but maybe for a year? And then tonight was the heart banquet. I think that went really well. It was fun to be with everyone and it was just really nice. I actually looked forward to the dinner.
I'm really happy with life right now. Or at least I'm in a stabled position that I would like to keep but know that it will not be like this for long or forever. Or at least I have a fear of it. I have this fear in the back of my mind that my love ones will be taken away, probably because I've death happens, and now I'm weary of it all. I want to just spend time together. Zafer came in one morning and told me of a dream he had. He was looking down on me sitting on a bed crying in a white house. There were two young children in the other room sleeping in their beds and I was crying over how to tell them the news. He said the little girl had his hair but my features and the boy had my hair but his features, or something like that. And he felt himself being taken away and he could only think no God, don't take me away. But he added that in the dream he knew that he would see me in Heaven. The dream bothers me greatly. I know its just a dream but it still brings tears to my eyes. When I look in his face I can only think that I adore him. I know that sounds stupid but its complicated. Ever since I first met him there has been something about him. I would watch movies and just be reminded of him in a moving way that would make me miss him even if we weren't talking at the time. Even last year I asked Jon about him. Just everytime it seems like my roads would come back to him and now I feel like I'm travelling on the right road. The only problem with this secure secureness of finding the one that you want to spend your life with is the paranoid feeling that he will be taken away. I'm just scared because Scott was taken away and that didn't seem likely. I mean the person is right there. They are right there. Then they are not. Mr. Johnson taught me. He graded my tests and punished my friends with life learning lessons but he's gone. Vanessa ran track with me and was in most of my classes but she's gone. Gone is not a word I want to associate with Zafer. Or anyone else for that matter. I love my mother. I love my sister. I love my brother. I love my father. I love my grandmother. I love my friends. Don't leave me anyone. Its hard to breath just thinking about it.
Its a hard step leaving high school. I know its not time yet. I might look put together but I'm really held up with paperclips, plasma, and gum on the inside.
Yon ho bag I miss talking with you. I think Acid had a good Governors School Audition today. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2007|05:17 pm] |
Querido la gente quien leer este jornal,
Lo siento por todos de las lecturas que escribo sobre nada, y en nada, es nada.
No hay un punto.
Um, so I'm working on the senior tribute, cracking down on the Spanish studies, and freezing because I just went outside. I'm probably going to post pictures soon of spinning. Love you guys, later. |
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| Yo |
[Jan. 20th, 2007|11:41 am] |
Um, hello. Hi. Um, yeah.
Most pointless post. |
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| Odd |
[Jan. 15th, 2007|03:27 pm] |
I'm not sure why I'm writing this. Some of you might not want to read it just because its my thoughts uncensored and all jumbled up. I was driving back to the house today and remembered that she kept a picture of her mother lying in a casket as the background on her cell phone. I stumbled upon it accidently one day. I began to wonder if that provided her comfort. I know her mother suffered with the disease. That one other girl always had a look in her eyes. Even when she was smiling her widest, something in her eyes pulled me in. Something seemed off. Sad, twisted. He pulled his collar up as the scarf blew in the wind. He knew the taste of the hurt too. The girl from there had ignorance in her eyes, she didn't know the taste of death yet. She knew the taste of pain, a difference. Pain comes and quickly goes, death lingers and gets in your clothes until your washing your skin with steaming water hoping that the vision leaves. I wonder if she knew, when she was with the girl that she would die this soon. I wonder if there really was anger in his death. I wonder if he knew that following the assertion would get him killed, did he think that it would save anyone? I wonder how I saw him when I was with him in person, and how I kept the papers he wrote on just because he's not in this world anymore. I still remember the candy she gave me and the words that she spoke, is she in Heaven? We are in this room, the statements were about all different people. They are dead, thanks captain obvious. White walls, a happy beginning, I still tear up at the thought of the dream. Looking upon all, thinking God no. I thought God no. I guess thats why I tear up. When I first heard the news thats all that I could cry out to. Saying God no, tell me its not true. You can't tell God no. I need a shower.
Exams this week, should be dank. Where do I find the pin number to my debit card? |
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| Animazement... |
[Jan. 6th, 2007|09:22 am] |
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Okay, so I called the Sheraton hotel because the website wasn't making me happy telling me that all the rooms were taken... SOOOO.... I spoke with the nice woman on the other end of the phone, and I reserved a room for two nights. Bow down. No I kid, but I did reserve a room. Um, on the email it says one person is staying in the room but I'll get that fixed. Um, just wanted to tell all of you that. |
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| New Years |
[Dec. 31st, 2006|06:58 pm] |
With the New Year arriving I wonder and even fear what it will bring. I know there will be good times of moments filled with friends and family and new opportunities to achieve my now life long dreams of becoming an animator with books out and a full length animation on the way, but I also fear what will be brought. I feel at times that I cannot take the short words that ends an image of someone in my life again. This past year Mr. Johnson my eighth grade teacher who inspired greatly to do my best because he actually went out of his way to encourage students, and then Vanessa who was a part of the old me and life both passed on, and I wonder what else this world will bring. I don't know, its probably best that I don't know... here are my resolutions for this upcoming year of 2007:
1. Finish Russian Clowns With Wings II: The Withouts.
2. Set and keep a quiet time to spend praying, reading, studying, and or researching the Bible everyday.
3. Start two other stories off with at least thirty pages.
4. Practice patience with anyone who I come in contact with.
5. Pass physics with at least a B.
And those are my resolutions that I can think of. I love you guys. |
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| Ebat |
[Dec. 24th, 2006|03:36 am] |
I came to this world for you,
In the last second I chose,
To follow you through this,
Again down this road.
And now you are giving,
Your life to those men,
As a baby is growing,
Down below and within.
Almond eyes open,
To an empty world,
With blood red skies,
And a lonely girl.
I guess I'll follow you,
To the next empty place,
That we will call home,
Until us they erase.
Merry last night of Hannuka or however you spell it. |
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| SAT |
[Dec. 21st, 2006|02:01 pm] |
Oh MUY GAWWWWWSH! Um, anyways, so I recieved my SAT scores today... um, here:
OLD SCORES:
Critical Reading 590
Math 520
Writing 520
Total: 1630
Total to what colleges care about: 1110
NEW SCORES:
Critical Reading 630
Math 520
Writing 610
Total: 1760
Total to what colleges care about: 1150
THE MATH DIDN'T CHANGE!!:!>?!!?!@?:KJDGLKDJF?!?!!?1 I CAN'T READ BUT MY READING SCORE WENT UP BY 40 AND MY WRITING WENT UP BY 90!?!!?!?! But seriously, I'm really happy about my other two scores though the math one bothers me, (especially since NO COLLEGES CARE ABOUT THE WRITING SECTION!!!!!!!!) |
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| Thus far... |
[Dec. 10th, 2006|10:53 pm] |
Yo yo yo mis homies. Okay, thus far, us schooling children still have a week and a day and a day en a half before Christmas break. Although I'm pumped about Christmas, actually thats some what of a lie. I'm okay with the idea of Christmas break just because I want to see my family that I don't get to see often, but then Christmas break means that the school year is half over (which means I'm closer to leaving FTS and Zafer for college). It scares me, it really does because it means I have to start life. Then just a couple of days ago a girl who I had known since seventh grade died. I must admit its bothering me, so I guess that has also kind of messed up my "holiday spirit". But yeah, I also don't want people to spend money on me. (Especially you Yon.) Just being able to see everyone this holiday, maybe make a really stupid movie, or recieving some cheap candy canes would be pimp. There is so much on my mind right now. Oh well, this Christmas music channel rocks. Oh by the way. I really want grip tape, risers, bearings, and wheels for my deck. No I am not asking you guys to go out and buy them, (unless you find really really cheap ones on ebay) but I am asking you if you want to go vote for my t-shirt design for sundiego board company. If you sign up with brickfish you could vote for my t-shirt everyday once until the contest ends, which might help out with the company choosing my design. (If I win I'll get a gift certificate to buy all of those wonderful things that I want. The link is here:
http://www.brickfish.com/Pages/Comps/CompLeaders.aspx?sctid=100019
Peace out you guys. |
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| Animazement |
[Nov. 12th, 2006|08:58 pm] |
Hey you guys registration has opened for Animazement 2007. If you want to register early for $30 then either go print off a form and then send a money order by November 14th (this Tuesday)... or give me $30 tommorow and I'll take care of everything so far. More to come later.
YON TRY TO CALL ME TONIGHT. |
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| Halloween |
[Nov. 2nd, 2006|10:50 pm] |
I know Yon hasn't seen us in a good while so I'll throw in some Halloween pictures for him.
Here is all of us at Mer's birthday party. (Jen is the one near the back with short hair and camo.) The Turk and the Russian Clown seems to be having too much fun...good thing Acid had a pimp cane to keep them in check.
And I think this picture speaks for itself. Man I love Zafer.
And this one isn't from Halloween, I just wanted to post it. Again, man I love that kid.
Um, I think thats all for now. Love you guys. |
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| Zafer is cute... |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|02:10 pm] |
Sorry I haven't posted lately, I haven't signed on in a while. I'm starting to feel worthless because I still haven't applied to UNCC and can't until mom puts at least $8 into my account... I know thats sad.
Well, to update everyone on whats going on here... Wednesday I began to feel extremely hot during all of my classes, (and no it wasn't because it was hot outside or anything like that.) In fact I was in really loose/cool clothes all day. Thursday I realized that it hurt to call commands during ROTC around the area behind my left hip, and the pain began. I was also having those weird hot feelings. Friday the hot feelings kind of went away though it felt incredibly nice whenever I went into the cold. And then when I went to call a command the area near my hips hurt so bad that I had to put Carver in my place. Also that day my lower back and stomach began to hurt. Saturday I was still having some pains though they weren't as noticiable. Sunday after mopping I began having really bad lower back pains. Monday I went to school with the pain near my hips and as the day went on the pain grew worse on the right side and the middle until I was crying during 4th-6th and had to go home. Today the pain is concentrated near my right hip and near the middle. (Also the pain isn't IN the bone, more like behind it.) I didn't go to school in fear that the pain would increase like the day before and then I would be stuck at school crying.
So besides that queer medical report I'm currently home checking up on some things. Ten more books came in the mail yesterday. Saturday Steph had one of the funniest birthdays I have ever been to. I can't believe I told Page to get her something that she was afraid of. And then Zafer took me to Pope's flight line which was awesome. I missed applying for college because of $8... and my lower stomach really hurts... I'm currently working on a skirt that will be awesome and I think I'll go draw or throw up.
LOVE YOU GUYS, PEACE. |
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| The website... |
[Sep. 9th, 2006|10:59 pm] |
Okay, so today after working at church I started my book's website. Its still under construction, (i.e. the pictures of the characters will change, there will probably be a blog added, and wording will change etc.), so don't judge it too hard. But anyone interested checking it out here's the link:
http://www.freewebs.com/russianclownswithwings/index.htm
You can read the first few pages of the book, check out some of my art (more will be added later), sign the guestbook, and read the myth so far on the website. Okay well, I'm going to go to sleep, love you guys and peace out. (By the way, go see Tokyo Drift.) |
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| BOOYAH! |
[Sep. 9th, 2006|08:25 am] |
For all of those that I did not call around 10 or 11 last night
I GOT THE COPYRIGHTS FOR MY FIRST BOOK BACK!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!ONE!11ONEONEONE!1!!1
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| Escuela |
[Aug. 31st, 2006|06:53 pm] |
Hello Jon, this is your sister. Here is my life right now....
My schedule and how the class is:
1. JROTC 4H- So far we've only been standing at attention or sitting at a desk and listening to Chief or Col-mostly Col-speak about Staff this year.
2. Physics H- I really like this class so far although I sit right under the air conditioning which is literally on high almost every day and you know how I am with the cold. Today we had classwork on conversions which I remembered somewhat from chemistry though I know that I got around five wrong :( so I'm not sure how I did on it. And she didn't really teach us how to converte units or how to do the experiment on polar strength on magnets that we did yesterday, I think it was because it was supposed to be a review, so I'm just hoping that all the review on science stuff sticks to what I know.
3. Art H- This class has been pretty good lately. So far I have drawn on a folder and went to a senior assembly where the senior class laughed at the principal when she told us that we needed a xeroxed copy of our parent's license to check out... don't ask.
4. AP Spanish- Oh my gosh, first twenty minutes of nothing but Spanish from some of the funniest kids I know and then lunch, and then back to the room for fifty more minutes of Spanish fun. And its with Sr. Villalobos which is even better because she's one of my favorite teachers.
5. AP Literature- Eh, not really crazy about this class. I feel that I learned more from the first day with Mrs. Ganjesani last year than all the classes I've had so far... but I think I'm learning some good tips/facts about writing fictional stories.
6. Earth Science H- Um, I sit next to Josh's sister and behind Mattie Love, its an interesting class. Yes... interesting.
7. ADVANCED FUN!(ctions)- Lets just say that I've written a lot of more of the second book.
So thats my schedule during the school day, its a lot easier than last year and yeah. For Jon: Creo que me gusta este chico que tiene una hermana que sabes y uh es de pavo. Um, yeah, don't ask, you'll just be invited to the wedding........ I'm just kidding. Um, how has your classes and stuff been Jon??? Send me an email if you don't want to use LJ. Love ya'll! |
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| School.... |
[Aug. 27th, 2006|11:50 am] |
OKAY.... so at least half of the people who are going to read this knows what I'm talking about, but I want to fill Jon in on this stuff sooo.... Mrs. Anarchy, or however you spell her name, she has taken away our bookbags, food and drinks from our homes (so now we have to buy water from machines...), tank tops without at least two inches on the straps, shorts that come mid thigh (which the stores don't make...), and we are back to 24 minute lunches. I'm not really sure how I feel about school right now. Mainly because I only had one day to go and we missed ROTC for some stupid homeroom session in which we did nothing. But the football game was nice and being with friends was nice. Well, I love you all and now I will share with you what Yon and I have been doing...
MEET YON.
He hogs the computer...
Here is Yon at the zoo. (We were at the artic animals pin.)
Here is Yon with his first Pokemon!
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